I thought I graduated the school of managing my emotions but then I realized that I need a PhD.
Before I dive into what I have to say, let me digress as usual. I want to believe that I am not the only one that has ever been tricked (I would say in my case, fooled) into buying an item they truly didn’t want or need by a good sales man. Am I right? Cause I can’t be the only one who fell into that trap. I wanted to get a vitamin c serum from my face and normally, I would use Dr.Rashel and this sales lady got me thinking the one she had to offer me was great as well, even though, they had the one I wanted.
I got home and that’s when I put two and two together. The product she sold me is the store’s little concoction, they make it themselves. I don’t know how I didn’t see the labelling before.
Now I am stuck with an oily orange scented thing that I’m not even sure won’t have an adverse effect….. Homegirl ain’t using it though. I’m not much of a skincare person. I can’t decide to make an effort and have that do a three-sixty on me.
That being said, onto the drama of the week.
People will test your patience. I like to think of myself as a very patient person, I tend to give people a long top to pull. But the events of the past week has just been so annoying .
It’s like it was orchestrated to test my patience. The first test was the conversation with the Instagram Vendor I wanted to purchase something from. The second was with a bus driver that was supposed to bring my package. And this man was so rude to me, especially when he found out that I am a young person.
All the while that he had been screaming and wouldn’t even let me finish a sentence before dropping the call, I was very patient. I was trying to tell him that as he is approaching an area close to Ibadan he should call me, because it would take quite a while for me to reach him at Iwo road, getting out of my estate at night is an Herculean task.
This man arrived a few minutes past seven. At this point I didn’t even know who to blame. The person that claimed to have sent the package at 9am or the driver just getting into town.
I wanted a dispatch company to do the delivery, but the vendor stated that her sales girl that takes orders to dispatch isn’t available and she wouldn’t be able to do it herself. By the time we calculated when it would be possible for them to go, it won’t meet up with the date I needed it for. So I said fine, send it through the park.
Normally, I would have a dispatch in town pick up for me from the driver cause I dont want no drama. But this time around, they were already closed cause it’s 7pm already.
See why I said everything was orchestrated to get me mad.
I hopped on a bike to meet this man and he had the temerity to tell me that if I am not there in the next 15 minutes he is going to drop my load and go.
I am love and all that, But the first statement that came out of my mouth was, “Daddy, I hope you are not mad.” But I said it in Yorùbá, so it shocked him. That was all I said though cause I didn’t want him too upset before baba go and leave my package and go true true. And I end up being the one begging him.
I got there and we happened to fall into a bit of a spat. And after I was done insulting him, on my way back home, I was wondering if it was really worth it. It was a battle of flesh and spirit. Cause my flesh knew it was worth it, but that didnt make it right.
But in my defense, the moment he said I didn’t have home training I lost it. I just can’t stand when adults do that thing. I am a very respectful person. But then, respect goes both ways.
It was not my finest moment. And in retrospect, I wish I had handled my emotions a bit better. This is one person that I am just having one encounter with. I would never see him again. So there was no need for me to have that back and forth with him, but I was not in the mood that day, He did not meet my head at home Like my ancestors would say.
The few times that I have had to deal with bus drivers, I just leave them to display their madness and get it over with. But this daddy I gave it to him hot hot.
Most of the time I overlook anything these people do, sometimes it feels like, why do I always have to be the bigger person? Because these people, they know how to get on your nerves, So why do I always have to be the bigger person and take it all in?
Everyday I try to be a better person. And yes, sometimes you need to actually change it for people. This may sound like I’m contradicting myself but even when you want to hash things out, not in that way, because I said some really bad things. And it just made me realize that maybe, just maybe, I still need to work on me a little.
Ask about me from anyone, they’d tell you I am as docile as a well fed cat, rarely get upset, but everyone has their moment. In as much as I want to believe that I am 80% there, the 20% is something as well.
Anywho, remember to spread love this week (don’t be like me) and reach for the stars.
