Things August taught me.
Judging by the title of this particular post, I contemplated whether I should write about it or not. It was something that I had planned for August. I was going to write it and release it the very first Thursday in September, since those are the days that I actually publish. But somewhere along the line, my schedule became a rollercoaster ride and one thing led to another.
I am here, halfway through September, still writing about August. Now this is not me trying to be stuck in the past, it’s just me still wanting to share.
What did August teach me, really?
August was a pretty interesting month. I had to push myself and make some certain decisions. I had a lot of experiences, the good, the bad and the ugly. I also had the good emotions and the bad ones. I was happy, full of joy, and I was also mad and sad. It was all over the place, just the is a typical way of living life.
I say, that when life hands you lemon, you plant a tree.
I know that growth comes at a cost and this is not the most comfortable price to pay. If you choose that you want to scale higher, you have to be willing to sacrifice something.
I’m not here trying to sound like a motivational speaker, so I would write about what August truly taught me.
Now is this a good thing or a bad thing? At the end of the next paragraph, I will decide. August taught me to keep it all together. That is a one sentence summary. I like to think of myself as a pretty patient person. It takes a lot to get under my skin and I like to think that I have learned a lot of important values along the way. I know that I am strong, I am resilient, and I have a lot of perseverance.
But August was that month where all of the traits were tested. It was that month where in as much as I’m somebody who gives myself freely, I wanted to hold back. August was that month where I felt like I have given to a lot of people and there’s almost nothing left. August was that month I was tiring and sometimes it got so hard that it was difficult to breathe,(well, not literally, obviously.)
But the gist of what I’m trying to say is August was that month where I got tired. And it happens from time to time. If you’re that person that others run to for support, you’re that person who is like glue that tries to keep everything together. It’s all well and good until it isn’t. And once in a while those moments just come where you need a breather and you need a break.
Unfortunately for me in August, I couldn’t even get that. So that was the month that life handed me a lemon and it was high time for me to plant a tree.
And I realized that more than anything it just showed me that I could take it a notch higher. I could learn to persevere more and get stronger and be more patient.
There was a part of me that was like ‘I am already more patient than the average Joe out there. What more does it take?’ But in life we all have different races and even though I would rank myself above average in this traits, I guess maybe it’s my race to give things up a little bit more.
Although there is the need to balance things out, to know whether truly, what you need at that point is to submit yourself a bit more or set a boundary and draw the line. I did a lot of deep thinking and searching myself and my spirit and I realized that what I needed to do was bend a little bit more.
It wasn’t pretty. I didn’t exactly like it. But in the long run it was and is for the best. That is one thing that August truly taught me. We learn lessons every day. I’m curious to see what September is going to teach me.
But until next time, remember to spread nothing but love and keep pushing for the stars
